Fifth

Monday night. I arrive at Economics Lab after the CCD shuts shop for the day to - 

1. Escape the suffocating heat
2. Study for the quiz I have following morning

I casually go through my Facebook feed and notice an article named 'That Hashtag Was My Colleague' shared by one of my favorite comic writer. It was a long article about the barbaric gang-rape of a young photo-journalist at Shakti Mills compound. And I had to stop in between. Not because of the length. But because I was angry. And partially disturbed. By the incident and also by the insensitivity of the system. I completed the article and was appalled by the attitude and comments of the defense lawyers and the then-accused assholes. And there are hundreds of similar cases in India every year. Thousands unreported. And I cannot stop wondering how the very fabric of the society that idolizes women in the form of knowledge, wealth, power and prosperity has been ruptured.

Moving on with the rest of week, I finally managed to finish off a book in a long time. Bangalore had decreased my efficiency from reading 50 pages a day to 50 pages a week. This has happened in the past but it generally took a week or two to get back to my original clearing rate. Though my laziness can be attributed as a prominent reason for the delay this time around, horrible climatic conditions at Kanpur along with 8 am classes every single day do find honorable mentions. For both of them lead to a highly skewed sleep pattern and turned me into a zombie for the rest of the day. Eventually, I held my ground and converged back to my natural tendency of preferring knowledge to course grades. 

This week, I also made a giant leap forward in understanding human emotions through several experiences. I have always considered myself an emotional retard, especially when it comes to expressing them except for anger (people who  know me well won't disagree.) And to a certain extent, I also considered that quality as a competitive advantage. But it seems the human genetic make-up is catching up with me. Whether or nor it will make me a better individual makes up for an interesting thought experiment!